Research and Writing and Googly Eyed Vaginas, Oh My!


I’ve been working as hard as ever! It’s not that I don’t have to time to post, I just need to make sure to make it a habit and stick to a schedule.

As you may have assumed I have given up hope of opening an Etsy shop. It just isn’t worth the struggle and I’d rather put full focus onto my current projects and school. I’ve been working hard on two pieces of writings for The Great Refusal: Taking on New Queer Aesthetics catalog. One piece is about female sexuality as seen through the works of Dana West, Mayumi Lake, and Barbara DeGenevive, while the other explores the impact the color pink has in the gallery space. I’m currently in the final revisions and will share them as soon as I finish. My classmate Kiam and I have been put in charge of curating and exhibiting in my Queer Spaces class final show. We are currently working on getting a cohesive description and show title and plan to start didpersing promotional materials starting next. The opening Reception will be on December 14th at Roxaboxen Gallery in Pilsen. More info to follow.

As for my personal work, I decided to revisit my Googly Eyed Vaginas. In 2010 I photographed a few, but quickly discarded them. After considering the fact that I wasn’t quite sure why I took them but still intrigued by them, I realized this emphasized the fact that they needed to be investigated further..

Initially created as a reaction to the ridiculous things women do to “dress-up” their va-jay’s, my Googly Eyed Vaginas offer the viewer a chance to gaze into the void, while being subjected to it staring back at them.

Back in the Swing of Things

Last Friday I had my first ever SAIC critique – I really needed it! I have been out of the academic circle since December, and boy did it feel great to get back to it. It was the first time I had shown my porn work to fellow students. Overall things went well; they seemed to really like the direction I it’s going and seemed excited to see more. But what I got most out of showing my recent porn work in juxtaposition to my old body work, was the reassurance to continue with both endeavors and reinforced the idea that they don’t have to be separate from one another. I think I needed a break from my body at the time that I began to work with porn, but lately I have been “craving” making work about my body and my interpersonal relationships. Part of me has been avoiding it because I tend to stick to making work in series. I tell myself that I can’t make work about my body because I’m still new and trying out things with porn. After this critique I’ve embraced my desire to get personal and will now intergrade it seamlessly into my current practice.

However, being in school, working two jobs, and getting my shop established have left me with very little (practically no) time for new work. For now I’ve been spending my free time in between classes working in the photo lab. Here are some new layered porn images I’ve recently made. As soon as I get the time to shoot, expect more body work soon!

From the Scene Layer series2012

“Sonja & Niky”
From the Scene Layer series


The Birth of a Zine

I’m terribly sorry for taking an unannounced hiatus. I’ve been busy working on several projects. Let me update you…

I’ve been very interested in expressing my thoughts and feelings through words lately; something that I’ve NEVER been into. It may be the result of my recent break up, or the fact that my subject matter consists entirely of all things superficial, but I’ve been craving putting a larger significance on my personal thoughts and feelings as of late.

Honestly, this scares me, because I feel I create my work for a third party point of view. Neither personal nor foreign. Well at least my recent porn pieces.

After hearing a story on NPR about an uncreative writing class, in which students are forbidden from writing anything of their own, rather they must repurpose other author’s work. A sort of accepted plagiarism, if you will.

I figured this would be a great way to begin using words in my work:

Since I’m not actually writing a poem or story its not as personal, hence not as intimidating to share. Using the perimeters of only using porn articles and romance novels gives me a box to work in, thus forcing myself to have to be more creative. Make sense? Finally, it’s a great way of utilizing un-useable magazine. Before this I only focused on images, and threw out the rest. Now I get more useable material out of one magazine.

Here’s what great about them:
The articles are usually in one column form to take as little space as possible. Each line is usually only 5 – 6 words long making them partial sentences, which are more interesting to work with. I try not to cut them unless I really like it better without a word or two.

I really like making clean poems, or vaguely sexual subjects because of the fact that there are so many dirty adjectives. I like recontextualizing the dialogues to be non-sexual.

Here’s an example:

Slightly Krugeresque, no?

With these “porn poems” and the colleges of dismembered body parts, I have decided to start a zine. “Girl Talk” will be a collection of words and images created from pornography. I’m still ironing out a few kinks, but plan to have my first one done by May 1st.  I’m going to send a few copies to Quimby’s and also on my Etsy store I am working on getting up. But more on that later.

More Girl Talk

I’ve been working on my “Girl Talk” series and I’ve come across a few problems:
I’m finding it hard to get the images to stick to the glitter surface.
In some of the images the gloss spray seeps through, leaving weird watermarks.
I also need to find a proper way of documenting them without glare.

Here are some of the finished ones. They’re just prototypes. I’ll iron out the kinks and update soon.

Leg Show

I’ve been increasingly fascinated with cutting apart the women in pornography. Not needlessly, only when it is called for. There is this certain shape that emerges when the subject is bent over (“Leg Show” seems to have the most of these). They represent a weird sexual tension and reinforce the idea of lusting over a woman’s body, while forgetting the person within.

These strange sex creatures are slightly reminiscent of bags of popcorn with sexy legs and are begging to be used.

I’m not quite sure what to do with these yet… must resist urge to adorn with googly eyes…

Ahh, who am I kidding?