Research and Writing and Googly Eyed Vaginas, Oh My!


I’ve been working as hard as ever! It’s not that I don’t have to time to post, I just need to make sure to make it a habit and stick to a schedule.

As you may have assumed I have given up hope of opening an Etsy shop. It just isn’t worth the struggle and I’d rather put full focus onto my current projects and school. I’ve been working hard on two pieces of writings for The Great Refusal: Taking on New Queer Aesthetics catalog. One piece is about female sexuality as seen through the works of Dana West, Mayumi Lake, and Barbara DeGenevive, while the other explores the impact the color pink has in the gallery space. I’m currently in the final revisions and will share them as soon as I finish. My classmate Kiam and I have been put in charge of curating and exhibiting in my Queer Spaces class final show. We are currently working on getting a cohesive description and show title and plan to start didpersing promotional materials starting next. The opening Reception will be on December 14th at Roxaboxen Gallery in Pilsen. More info to follow.

As for my personal work, I decided to revisit my Googly Eyed Vaginas. In 2010 I photographed a few, but quickly discarded them. After considering the fact that I wasn’t quite sure why I took them but still intrigued by them, I realized this emphasized the fact that they needed to be investigated further..

Initially created as a reaction to the ridiculous things women do to “dress-up” their va-jay’s, my Googly Eyed Vaginas offer the viewer a chance to gaze into the void, while being subjected to it staring back at them.

Etsy Shop Banned!

My Etsy Shop has been banned!

I won’t say I’m surprised, but I didn’t think I was breaking any policies. When I launched I didn’t censor the cover images. Once I realized I had done it (first thing in the morning) I quickly changed the images, a good 8 hours before being banned. That, with the fact that I tagged the listings as “mature”, and included that in the title, lead me to believe that my listings were safe.

I’m currently in communication about getting reactivated, and in an effort not to “disrespect the confidentiality of the private conversation”, I will refrain from sharing my response (for now). I will, however, leave you with this interesting sentence I just so happen to create:

“The implication that they would be used for anything other than their intended use simply because they depict googly eyed vagina creatures and O-faces is ridiculous.”

Back in the Swing of Things

Last Friday I had my first ever SAIC critique – I really needed it! I have been out of the academic circle since December, and boy did it feel great to get back to it. It was the first time I had shown my porn work to fellow students. Overall things went well; they seemed to really like the direction I it’s going and seemed excited to see more. But what I got most out of showing my recent porn work in juxtaposition to my old body work, was the reassurance to continue with both endeavors and reinforced the idea that they don’t have to be separate from one another. I think I needed a break from my body at the time that I began to work with porn, but lately I have been “craving” making work about my body and my interpersonal relationships. Part of me has been avoiding it because I tend to stick to making work in series. I tell myself that I can’t make work about my body because I’m still new and trying out things with porn. After this critique I’ve embraced my desire to get personal and will now intergrade it seamlessly into my current practice.

However, being in school, working two jobs, and getting my shop established have left me with very little (practically no) time for new work. For now I’ve been spending my free time in between classes working in the photo lab. Here are some new layered porn images I’ve recently made. As soon as I get the time to shoot, expect more body work soon!

From the Scene Layer series2012

“Sonja & Niky”
From the Scene Layer series


Forgetting a person, weird bruse on leg, and other nonsensical search terms people have used to find my site.

WordPress has this great feature that allows you to see the Google search terms that individuals used to find your site. I just thought I’d share a list of the terms that make no sense at all:

“new orleans” actress nude,
anarchist popcorn,
bacak show,
bag of popcorn,
bikini patterns for shaving,
birthing porn,
boys and girls porn,
bread and wine b&w,
breakup quotes for bed sheets,
cholleges girls porn,
clean porn,
colleges words,
fact adjectives,
fijian women porn,
forgetting a person,
freeform crochet scarf pattern,
girl after sex,
how to draw a female bending over,
inside blowjob,
ligs cexy woman,
men doing work in black and white,
no more tears googly eyes,
nude bikini boys,
nude girls running,
nude professors,
photos terminal illness b&w,
point cloud porn,
popcorn sexy,
porn girl all kind dirty sex,
porn girl eating period blood,
porn prosss,
porn vagina hole girl,
pregnant nude blowjob,
pregnant nude,
really vulva girl,
sex in women sexy part of body,
sexual tension roommate,
sexy religion,
subjects to talk about with a girl,
suit made out of money,
suits for men,
weird bruise on leg,
weird creature model suits,
wine sexy,
wine shop collage,
women bags,
womenfull color/nude/blowjob/open now,
wood rotten porno magazine,
young girl nipples family nudist,

SAVE THE DATE! Because this is really it:

I will launch my Etsy shop on October 1st!
Just in time for the holidays!

Along with art I will also be selling zines, postcards, lighters, magnets, buttons, etc., with prices to accommodate Any budget. I will also be selling my holiday exclusive “pornaments” so you can deck your halls in style and smut.

If you are a fan of my work please show your support by liking my facebook page!

I know it’s been a few months since my last post…

But please don’t be mad! Blame summer for getting in the way!

Although I haven’t been making posts, I have continued to make work – or rather, continued to prepare for making work. Knowing that I would be starting school soon and that I’d quickly become very busy, I decided to focus on organizing my workspace, gathering materials, and began collecting hundreds of cutouts from porn magazines. I have everything from isolated body parts (lips, penises, nipples, vulva, etc.) to random images I find appealing.

I’m still keen on the “leg creatures” but I have also been saving other random common imagery that I have yet to figure out what to do with. For example, I love the profiles of women performing oral. With the context removed, they look like they’re vomiting.

I am currently taking two queer theory classes, so this semester is sure to be beneficial to my work. Stay tuned for more.

Chicago Naked Bike Ride 2012

This event kind of crept up on us, so when it came time to go my 3 friends and I only had 2 working bikes. We decided to attend anyways and I’m so glad we did or else we wouldn’t have seen the thousands of beautiful, naked bodies riding through the city. We alternated turns on the bikes while the other two followed along on foot until the event became too quick to keep up with. Next year we will for sure have our shit together, and hopefully I can get more volunteers to don my crocheted nude suits!

My Body, of Work

Hello dear readers! I am terribly sorry, but my Etsy store opening has been postponed due to recent events:

I am very pleased to announce that I have been accepted to my first school choice, The School of the Art Institute of Chicago; from which I have been awarded a very generous merit scholarship.  With the addition of federal loan money, I will be attending a top private school for a bit less than a state university would cost me. Fuck yes! To honor the achievement, I have decided to share my award winning portfolio and artist statement. Enjoy!

28 Days Later
Oil on Canvas
2 Panels – 5”x7”

3 Menstrual Pads
Oil on Canvas

Bed Sheet Lifts
Oil on Canvas
3 Panels – 8”x10”

Bed Sheets
Oil on Canvas
3 Panels – 8”x10”

Crochet Vaginas
2”x1” Each

Googly Eyed Vaginas
Fiji Transfers
4 panels – 3.25” x 4.25”

Body Scan (With Bra)
Cyanotype on Fabric

Body Scans (Without Bra)
Cyanotype on Fabric
2 Panels – 18”x21”

Crochet Bikinis
S, M, L Sizes

Crochet bikini #2
Oil Pastel on Wood

Artist Statement:
My mother died just before I went into puberty. As a result, I was left to the media and my peers to try to figure out what a woman could be. Instead I learned what a woman was supposed to be. I found the disconnection between the two to be really quite funny. My work shows this conflict through the juxtaposition of fine, well-crafted, depictions of the female body vs. a satirical representation of it. Thus making my work poignant, yet not overly political.

Unmentionable objects, such as menstrual pads, transform into subjects that become oddly beautiful. From gently folded bed sheets emerges the image of a vulva. Googly eyes are placed onto vulvas to make them less frightening, or even cute. Crocheted bikinis represent clothing’s function to cover the form, but the addition of nipples and pubic hair show what is intended to be hidden. As women have gained equality, they no longer fulfill traditional roles in the home, so some previously valued domestic skills such as crocheting are becoming lost arts. My use of crochet laments what feminism has lost, while celebrating what it has gained.

I reinforce my ideas across multiple media and with the use of repetition. The importance of tactile quality is seen through various protruding folds and stretch marks, often printed on or including fabric materials. This portfolio is arranged to flow from menstruation to the vagina and further still to the whole female body. These pieces are extremely personal and generally small, as to draw the viewer in for a closer look, thus giving my work a quiet intimacy or even a voyeuristic quality.

Through this body of work, the grotesque becomes beautiful, what is generally admired becomes distorted, the taboo becomes ordinary, and reality deconstructs into a variety of possible interpretations. All of this leaves the viewer to imagine, if this representation of womanhood is true, what are women truly capable of achieving?